"You have breast cancer."
Not a sentence I ever expected to have directed to me. That happened to other people. People I read about or heard about. No one in my family had had breast cancer, so it wasn't even something I ever thought of. Oh yeah - I'd seen those little pink ribbons, and I felt sorry for anyone who had it - but that didn't apply to ME. I'd never been sick - well, I'd had colds and flu and even had pneumonia once - but not really sick. I absolutely, positively HATE and am terrified of needles. I'm the caregiver - I'm not the patient. I took care of my mother-in-law, my mother and then my husband. I know how to be a caregiver. I don't know how to be a patient!
Then I found "the lump". That was in October 2006. I went to the my family doctor (the lump was quite easy to feel) and he sent me for a mammogram (aren't those fun). The results came back: density, no change from last mammogram (the previous year). Probably fibercystic calcification.
So, I mostly put it out of my mind. Mostly!
But there was that nagging little voice in the back of my head. I finally talked to a friend who's a nurse and she about had a fit. Advised me to seek a second opinion immediately. Well, by then it was January 2007 and my OB/GYN had stopped practicing medicine (the main reason I'd gone to the family doctor with this to begin with), so I had to find another doctor. Finally got a recommendation, called and got an appointment for February 6. (Hate going to doctors, but REALLY hate going to new ones).
I took the mammogram results with me and after examining me and reading them, he immediately sent me to the Breast Center for a breast ultrasound. Okay, I could handle that, they wouldn't stick any needles in me (did I mention I'm deathly afraid of needles?).
Okay, I go (right then) for the ultrasound. After the technication finished she excused herself and said she'd be right back. Came back with the Radiologist and SHE did the ultrasound again (that should have been a clue to me). She said she thought I needed a biospy that she didn't like the looks of the lump. So, biospy scheduled for February 12.... not very excited about that as they WILL stick needles in me.
Had the biospy - it wasn't fun. They said the doctor who'd sent me for the ultrasound would call me with the results.
Got the phone call on the 14th - they needed me to come into the office the next day.
Well, you know that's not good news. They give you good news on the phone. They tell you in person that you have breast cancer.
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